Note me in the background of this picture.
Poor Adam- I know he feels it some days!
Our pastor in Waco once said to treat your spouse like their day was harder than yours. Obviously, there may be an exception to that rule- like, if you were diffusing a bomb with bamboo shoots under your fingernails in the middle of a zoo with a pink lace petticoat on that was two sizes too small. But, aside from those situations, it's a pretty great rule.
I find myself easily falling into the I'm exhausted, how hard was my day category and envying Adam, usually at totally illogical times. I'll perceive that he has more freedom or more variety. When I sit and think, I am so happy with what I'm doing everyday- I would not want to go back to pre-Henry or my old job, I'm extremely blessed! I am so fortunate even if our family is far away, even if the future is uncertain, even if my husband is in medical school! And, I would definitely not want to be studying my pants off with the pressure of taking care of a family and matching into a good residency while the sun is shining outside like Adam is doing.
I'm asking God to create in me a more grateful heart. I need eyes to see more of the beauty of my days, not the monotony or the frustrations. When I ask, he's so faithful to show me the sweetest sights- Henry's hysterical laughter, incredible conversations with friends, the kindness of my husband, sunshine, a butterfly, sweet peace, whatever it is.
I'm asking for more compassion for others- that I can see the challenges that Adam faces and my friends & neighbors face and stop thinking about myself so much! I want a Phillipians 2 kinda heart where I really regard others as greater than myself. Where I look to their needs and not my own. I'm thankful that Jesus modeled that so well for us living on Earth. That he was willing to take on flesh and blood and live amongst us and love us and heal our craziness and frustrations and junky-junk.
And that is my airing for today!