I think about how easy it is to get caught up in worry- worry about his health or finances or whatever. It's so easy to throw myself into planning- planning for his arrival, planning for his life here. How sweet it was to sit and have a moment of just pure joy and thanksgiving. It was an awe-inspiring moment and I felt like I saw a new part of the Lord: his simple delight in our lives. In our being. In our being JUST as we are, made unique by his hands, crafted in his image.
I thought about how delighted I was that our son had acknowledged my nudge with a kick and wondered how God felt when I acknowledged him, just simply remembered him and thought about him, apart from all the other random distractions going on. I pray that I stay in a grateful attitude and have my heart fixed on lasting things and not consumed by worries or plans.